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Monday, February 20, 2006

Lein Girlz 3

Lein Girlz 3

Open season on misery and self-indulgent (sp? jesus fuck ! I can't even spell anymore...) complaints. WTF: I got itchy. All over. So bad it woke me up at night about a week ago. Since then, violent spurts of itchiness for no apparent reason. I have scratched so much I am bruised. (I think I must also be anemic or have leukemia b/c bruising from scratching seems unnatural, AND a friend I worked with in Newton up and died fr0m previously undiagnosed leukemia like a week after she went to the doctor complaining of unexplained bruises and bleeding gums. She was like, 25 years old!) I went to a dermatologist and got a mildly helpful hydrocortisone shot, have been taking benadryl a lot and got some slightly helpful cream. It doesn't really stop the itching, but now when I itch, I put on cream instead of just scratching. OK so sometimes I "scratch" on the cream but it feels sooo goooood! The only thing I can think of is that the new miracle drug that makes my life worth living (Ritalin) is somehow backfiring and causing me to itch like a crack addict. I guess I can be a crack addict as long as I am not sleeping continually and feeling lethargic and uninterested in life. I'm in a weird place right now. I stopped taking the Ritalin for a few days (boy did THAT suck: I slept tons and/or felt really sad and crappy) and now I decided that since the itching has calmed down slightly, I wanted to try to feel like a human again, so I took half the dose yesterday. And felt about half human. Today I took the full dose and feel better, but am also now freaking out because I have felt so crappy and this is the only thing that makes me feel OK and I don't like that because it makes me feel panicky b/c what if the itching comes back full force and I have to stop taking the Ritalin. Yada yada yada. I am sick of myself. Also, unstructured time is not my friend. And it is blisteringly cold so outdoor exercise makes me feel like those idiots who climb mount everest. But I did see 5 deer the other day. That was nice. Also, the new Sue Grafton S is for Sucks to be Sick (or Silence) was good.


Blogger kari said...

amycita! the itch if from cold, dry weather! my skin itches like a ... like a.... like something that itches a lot! aveeno medicated lotion is your friend!!!!

Tuesday, February 21, 2006 at 8:04:00 AM PST

Blogger Crystal said...

you should acratch with a hairbrush - the kind with the plastic bristles. guud stuff.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006 at 9:57:00 AM PST

Blogger eM said...

Hang in there!!! you've always been a bruiser, so don't worry about that. Both in that you bruise easily and that you kick much ass.

And don't worry about working out outside when it's freaky cold. When it was -30 the other winter, Dyl and I went to the cabin and went x-country skiing. We weren't the only people out there! As long at your toes aren't freezing off, enjoy it :) And do a lap or so for me, I won't be running until June or July. grrrr...

Loves mah Amycita!!!

Tuesday, February 21, 2006 at 10:09:00 AM PST


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